Our love ends here

Today i woke up from bed,
Missing her so badly.

The pain on the arm was totally ignored,
because she was scolding me again.

I was so happy,
until she say..
"i'm not yours, u dont have to bother anymore"

Those word scattered my heart into a million pieces.
It was like a gun
shooting into my heart .

Maybe what my friend say was right.

She already have someone better,
and i should move along?

No point hurting myself,
cause she wont be bothered.

For once in my life,
i thought i found my true love,
She was my true love.
But i think it was just a puppy love.

Im sorry to my friends for leaving u.
Sorry for the friends i ignored in friendster.
Sorry for everything i have done.

She was happy.
Forever
&
its time to say goodbye.
I love you

Love lost can be so pain

Cut and bleed out the love that i lost.

I always love u no matter what.

Im sorry for asking u to get out of my life.

I just wish u could be the same person i loved before.

I never wanted to hurt U.

I never wanted this to happen.

I need you so badly.


I wish u are looking at this,
cause i love you.

I think if i lose u now,
Ill lose u forever.

I feel like turning back the clock,
but come to think of it,
u will hate me more.

Its not ur fault that our love dont exist,
It was mine.

I know what u wanted,
and im sorry i couldn't grant ur wish.

Because i love u,
&
Didn't want anything to happen to u.
Because i am the cause of it.

If u hate me now,
I will move along.
Just like u said,
There is no turning back.
Regretting,
My life is a waste,
and i cant breathe without u,
its so hard to breathe.

I've regret.
Im sorry.
im sorry for what i said.
nothing in this world means to me,
more than u.
I LOVE YOU <3



Wishing you would forgive me for the sin i've done. I love you always & there is no turning back.

Life without a soul

I dont know what to do now,

i love her really much
&
don't wanna let her go.

She was my precious,
&
always my precious.

She was the apple of my eye
&
The beauty of my love story.

She was everything i needed
&
The only one who understands me.

She is the soul of my life
&
also the angel of my life.
Save me~

Day by day passes,
&
i think i am dying soon.
Bleeding Love <'3

She is my sunlight,
who only shine on me,
which keep me alive.

As soon as she left,
I cant eat,
I cant sleep,
I cant study,
I cant do my work,
I cant do anything...

I keep having this dream,
that we were together again.
Somehow i just need u so badly.


I need you~
I want you~
I miss you~
I love you~
More then anything else in this world. ^ ^


GoodBye my life ends here...
I wish she knew how i felt.
She was my hope
&
Wish she understands me~





'X,...,X' died today in 27 feb 2009 <3>

Horrible day

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes


Im good as dead now

The Way i am

Yea Its me. This is just the normal me.

Whatever..
Aiyyo.. this song is for anyone.. fuck it
Just shut up and listen, aiyyo...

I sit back with this pack of Zig Zags and this bag
Of this weed it gives me the shit needed to be
The most meanest MC on this -- on this Earth
And since birth I've been cursed with this curse to just curse
And just blurt this berserk and bizarre shit that works
And it sells and it helps in itself to relieve
All this tension dispensin these sentences
Gettin this stress that's been eatin me recently off of this chest
And I rest again peacefully ..
But at least have the decency in you
To leave me alone, when you freaks see me out
In the streets when I'm eating..
Do not come and speak to me..
I don't know you and no,
I don't owe you a mo-therfuck-in thing
I'm not Mr. N'Sync, I'm not what your friends think
I'm not Mr. Friendly, I can be a prick
If you tempt me my tank is on empty..
No patience is in me and if you offend me
I'm liftin you 10 feet ..
in the air..
I don't care who is there and who saw me destroy you
Go call you a lawyer, file you a lawsuit
I'll smile in the courtroom and buy you a wardrobe
I'm tired of arguin..
I don't mean to be mean but that's all I can be is just me


And I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am


Sometimes I just feel like my father, I hate to be bothered
With all of this nonsense it's constant
And, "Oh, it's his lyrical content -
- the song 'Guilty Conscience' has gotten such rotten responses"
And all of this controversy circles me
And it seems like the media immediately
Points a finger at me ..
So I point one back at them, but not the index or pinkie
Or the ring or the thumb, it's the one you put up
When you don't give a fuck, when you won't just put up
With the bullshit they pull, cause they full of shit too
When a dude's gettin bullied and shoots up his school
And they blame it on Marilyn..
and the heroin
Where were the parents at? And look where it's at
Middle America, now it's a tragedy
Now it's so sad to see, an upper class city
Havin this happenin ..
Then attack Eminem cause I rap this way..
But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel that I need for the fire
To burn and it's burnin and I have returned


I'm so sick and tired of bein admired
That I wish that I would just die or get fired
And dropped from my label and stop with the fables
I'm not gonna be able to top on "My Name is.."
And pigeon-holed into some pop-py sensation
To cop me rotation at rock n roll stations
And I just do not got the patience ..
To deal with these cocky caucasians who think
I'm some wigger who just tries to be black cause I talk
With an accent, and grab on my balls, so they always keep askin
The same fuckin questions..
What school did I go to, what hood I grew up in
The why, the who what when, the where, and the how
til I'm grabbin my hair and I'm tearin it out
Cause they drivin me crazy .. I can't take it
I'm racin, I'm pacin, I stand and I sit
And I'm thankful for every fan that I get
But I can't take a SHIT, in the bathroom
Without someone standin by it
No I won't sign your autograph
You can call me an asshole I'm glad


And I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am

~Thats The way i am~

Aiyoooo~

Sei lo!
Tomorrow having accounts quiz!
bored. = =

Lucky i am well prepared!
haha! xD
Guess what happen today?

I meet up with 3 of my friends.
WeeLyn, Chui Ann and Alia.
O.o.
Good for them lo!
so free.. =(
unlike me. So busy studying.
No time to take driving license.

Well, Thats all for today.
Off to bed. NItezz~

Hyun Joon & Fan Bing Bing ROX~!

Kung fu Hip Hop!
Dj Fan Bing Bing
Hyun joon in Kung fu hip hop
Fan Bing Bing
Hyun Joon with pepsi
Hyun Joon & Fan Bing Bing!


Hyun joon's popping is so cool yet so yeng!
Wish i could dance like him. hahas xD
need 40 years of training bahs.
HaHaHa!

Fan Bing Bing look so cool if she is a DJ.
Haha. Try to watch Kung Fu hip Hop!

Thats all for today.

Help in the Orphanage

It wasn't that bad as i imagine.
We were having so much fun
just being with the little one's.
Play our games
and
their games.

But we couldn't do our out door activities.
That was the boring part.
Cause their headmaster
doesn't want them to sweat.

The reason we are doing this,
is because
for our college final exam marks!

CRAZY...

But easy marks. Hahas xD
This is for human communication!
For high distinction!

• RaNd0M subject

Hiaz..
Now u can see
how busy i am.
Miss everyone~ xD

TO YOu~
I need you in my life thats why i want you badly,
I want you because i love you very much,
I love you very much that makes me miss you.
We are still together, and always be together forever.
Because u are the time of my life.

Im out. OFF9.

Today's activities

The same day.
Nothing to do but dying of boredom!
Today classes started from 9.30am- 10.30am
Finish~!
Wat Da ****~?!?!
Classes was canceled..

Hahahas..
i thought of going CC.
but i didn't have a penny. =(
So i went straight back home.

Waited at home until sunset.
waiting for her to come home.
She doesn't know how much i miss her.
Everyday thinking about her.

My dear precious,
What will i do without you?
It's like living without a heart.
Because my heart will always be with you.
No matter where u are.
This is because...
I Love You.

Hahas. thats all.
OFFLINE~

College Life O.o

College life unlike life in seri cahaya.
There is less work but more assignment!

Geeezz..

Wishing i could turn back the clock.
Doremon's time machine?
I've gone nuts!
Maybe becoz i miss everyone?
Maybe i miss my friends?
Maybe i miss her...

Making a lot of new friends now.
Its better then staying at home.
hahas! Most of them are bored staying at home!
right? xD

Today i had meeting with my group.
About visiting the orphanage.
We are about to entertain them and do donation!

Mwuahahaha~!

Im so kind! Joking~
This is actually for my exam marks. x)

Bored!!

Yea. The sports at college hasn't started.
It will begin on the march!
The worst thing is,
it has no VOLLEYBALL!
I want to play. T.T

Thats all.
Sign Out~

Ehhh..? Blur?

I wonder how this things works...? O.o
tab.. tab.. tab.. Account deleted! o.O''

Wow~

Hahas bull shyt.
Hmmm,
my 1st time? Yea.
maybe ill write another day.
when i get use to it.
Unless she teach me! >.<
geeez..

Im out~